Having two weeks of blissful freedom has really driven home how much college sucks ass these days. I mean, I have to once again get up stupidly early, and ride through horrible traffic, to lessons which at this point are mostly useless, spending money I would really rather save, all in an attempt to pass a few exams to get me into Uni, where I will keep on working until I’m totally burned out, to move into a job which will consume the rest of my life. Now, like every other student out there I understand how very important university is. It’s the start of your future, and if I work hard now I will have a better life then and bla bla bla bla. Honestly? I would rather study at home, get to eat, sleep and pee whenever I want, and still (maybe) pass my exams and get to university life a lot further away from mental exhaustion. Sure I would have had less fun (debatable) and met less amazing people, but that doesn’t excuse college for the amount that it sucks.
Take today. Today is a Wednesday, nothing much really happens on a Wednesday because I only have one lesson, with a useless teacher, and only about 8 people ever actually turn up. That’s on a good day. It’s now gotten to the point of ‘revision lessons’ which means that we copy out of books while the teacher makes very little effort at all. Literally, for an hour and a half today, I stared at the same page full of statistics that she has never bothered explaining wondering why I had bothered getting out of bed. I learned nothing and when the lesson was up I went home. Is that productive? I think not. Nobody gets anything out of those lessons, and our exam results suffer from it. We all stressed about the Psych exam so much in January because half our lessons were spent learning nothing. I was lucky, and I did ok, but it might not have happened that way.
Tomorrow will be another strange and annoying day, because I will have from 3:30 till 6 doing nothing at all. I could go home, theoretically, but come on we all know how expensive petrol is and this broke ass student wants to buy a plane ticket to Maine this year! So, I wait about. But I’m not allowed to wait in the library unless I hide myself away, oh no, the library isn’t somewhere students are allowed to go to be quiet. What the hell is the deal with that? If I want to sit and read a book I have to play nice with the young curly librarian and hope he ignores me sitting between the German and French course books. It’s not like anybody needs to go down those shelves. If, however, I was part of a large group of people sat at the tables all doing no work at all, listening to music and watching videos on the internet being generally loud and disruptive, I would be able to stay there no problem. College, you really have got it backwards there. I want to be quiet in a Library, they are being noisy, and you try to throw ME out?
Summary? The early mornings suck, the lessons are mostly pointless, there is too much work, no time and it’s all getting really very stressful!